Florence Welch has admitted she is ‘haunted’ by the idea of having children and doesn’t feel like she is ready to become a mother yet.
The Florence and the Machine singer, 35, spoke candidly about the possibility of parenthood in a new interview with Rolling Stone magazine.
The performer, who has not been publicly linked to anyone since Felix White from The Maccabees in 2016, said that while she is scared she also dreads the idea of missing the opportunity of having children.
Honest: Florence Welch has admitted she is ‘haunted’ by the idea of having children and doesn’t feel like she is ready to become a mother yet
She explained: ‘The way that it feels to me now, which maybe is creeping through on this album, is that it feels like a slow, creeping overtake.
‘It feels like a little ghost — I feel haunted by the idea of children, rather than feeling like ‘I’m ready!
‘But then, it’s this dread, that maybe you’re not ready now, but what if you then get to the place where you’re sure and you’ve missed it?
Cover shot: The Florence and the Machine singer, 35, spoke candidly about the possibility of parenthood in a new interview with Rolling Stone magazine
‘Time isn’t on your side, and that kind of rage is what the scream at the end of ‘King’ is — I’m not saying I don’t want these things; I just want more time! But… time isn’t like that. You can’t escape it.’
Florence, who has discussed her eating disorder in the past, also spoke about the destructive feelings she had where she felt like she ‘didn’t deserve to eat’.
She said: ‘So much of that is rejecting nourishment — ‘I don’t deserve to eat, I don’t deserve to feel comfortable.’
Reflecting on how it merges into other areas of her life, she added: ‘Anorexic thinking is still part of my life, even though the anorexia itself isn’t. And so, with emotional intimacy, which is kind of like being fed, sometimes you can be like, ‘No, that’s too much, I don’t need it.’
Romantic life: The performer, who has not been publicly linked to anyone since Felix White from The Maccabees in 2016, said that while she is scared she also dreads the idea of missing the opportunity of having children
The frontwoman previously spoke out about overcoming her eating disorder and the decision to give up drinking and embrace sobriety eight years ago.
Florence recently said she thought about her old food patterns during the pandemic, admitting to British Vogue ‘it’s a slippery slope’ once that starts to happen.
In the interview she said: ‘When you’re sober it is unfiltered reality all day every day. You don’t get a brain break. I really f****** empathise with anyone who did relapse in those two years because I think it was probably the closest I’ve ever thought about it.
‘There were moments when I was like, ‘Should I be starting to cut back on my sugar? Or should I do a cleanse?’ And that for me is just a slippery slope.
‘Anorexia provides a feeling of certainty, because you’re just like, I’m going to control this.’
The star went on to talk about the strong support network she has around her to prevent her from a relapse.
She said: ‘Luckily, I have people I can talk to and that’s one of the most important things for anyone – to keep talking about it. And not to be ashamed if those thoughts come up.’
In 2018, the Shake it Out hitmaker admitted she worried she would die if she didn’t give up alcohol, even though she felt that being an ‘extreme identity’ was a huge part of who she was.
She explained: ‘The way that it feels to me now, which maybe is creeping through on this album, is that it feels like a slow, creeping overtake’ (pictured in April 2022)
She said: ‘Being an extreme drinker was a huge part of my identity. Music and alcohol are sort of my first two loves.
‘When I stopped, there was this sense that I was letting some ghost of rock history down that I just couldn’t cope anymore. It was monumental.
‘It wasn’t like, ‘I want to be healthy and I need a change of pace.’ It was like, ‘I’m going to die. I need to stop.’
During the new interview, Florence admitted that she believes giving up booze has added to her becoming a ‘very agoraphobic person’.
She said: ‘I think a lot of people think, Florence+ the Machine! She’s just gonna be lounging around in silky stuff.’ No, I’m gonna be a ball of anxiety, with the TV on, constantly just trying to keep out the bad thoughts.
‘It’s not gonna be fun and glamorous, I promise — there’s the stage, and then there’s the very agoraphobic person who needs just to be in the house, you know, especially since I stopped drinking. I am very much a homebody.
‘So, I think people come on board thinking it’s gonna be really fun and exciting, but it’s that sense of like, ‘Oh, the public will get the good bits.’ You won’t. You’ll get the tears.’
The Rolling Stone UK June/July issue is out now
Opening up: During the new interview, Florence admitted that she believes giving up booze has added to her becoming a ‘very agoraphobic person’